Fighting The Scale
Since I am starting a new workout program tomorrow I decided it was about time that I weigh myself again. I knew it wasn’t going to be nice to me. I mean at the end of the day how many times is the scale actually nice to us? Even though I knew it was not going to be the number I wanted I wasn’t ready for how it made me feel.
I had worked so hard for six months of 2017 and lost forty five pounds. I am not sure what happened to all of that motivation. Regardless, I had worked out some but was never as dedicated as I was before. This morning the scale told me that I had gained back ten pounds. I know that half of that was from the holidays. I wasn’t as bad as I could’ve been for the holidays, but I know where I was beforehand.
Seeing that extra ten pounds really made me hate myself for a few hours this morning. I dove into this mindset that I ruined my progress. It even made me wonder if it was all really worth trying so hard. Why try when I just slip back into these spells of zero motivation.
Later today I was picking up my groceries from Walmart. I am not sure what made me stop and reevaluate. Maybe it was divine intervention haha. But, I really started to think about how far I still had gone. Yes, I gained ten pounds back, but I still lost thirty five pounds last year. In the grand scheme of things that is still such amazing progress!
Winning The Battle
I think we get so caught up in the negatives during these journeys. When we miss a workout we think the world is ending. These negative mindsets are what keeps us where we are and we make zero progress. Half of the time when I get into these moods I fall into this depression and think I can’t do anything.
Most days I can keep myself on track and I have such a great support system to help me. I know that if I had texted my mother and told her why I was moody she would’ve killed me. She is constantly reminding me of how much work I have put in this past year. Honestly, I kicked butt and I need to remember that!
At the end of the day, I think it was a great thing to happen at the first of the year. I needed to have that moment of realization. That moment where I thought I could do nothing right and question why I was doing this again. Because, now I know to remind myself of the good. I went to Chicago last December and had to buy a bigger coat. This year I went again, and I put on that same coat and it was so much bigger! I was actually able to layer sweaters underneath and still be comfy.
Long rant aside I wanted to write this post as a reminder for myself and anyone reading. If you are on this blog then I know you are trying to better yourself. You are looking for the same encouragement that I needed last year. Together I know we can really start to look into the positives in this journey. We can accomplish great things if we just keep looking up!