Growing Up Fat
Growing up in the back of my mind I always felt different from everyone around me. I always felt like an outsider. Because I was not the same size as everyone around me in school I was called fat. My mom put me in soccer to help me get some exercise and I loved it. I played soccer from the time I was 3 until I was a junior in high school. I was never the best, but I put my whole soul into the game.
Personally, I can’t pinpoint the exact age when I started to really think that I was fat. Looking back now it almost feels like it was something I always assumed. My brother used to always tell me that I was fat. At some point I just started to believe him.
I look back at pictures from my childhood and from college and I can’t believe how at that time I thought I was so fat. When I look into the mirror I never see any difference in my body all I see is fat. Even after taking progress pictures I would just see the fat and no improvement even though everyone around me was so proud of me and cheering me on.
When Everything Changed
I was 25 years old when I hit my biggest size. The one size I told myself repeatedly I would never get to. I never wanted to be 300 pounds or more. In December of 2016 I weighed in at 303.4 pounds and I was devastated. This is when everything changed for me and I realized I needed to make a change for the better and improve my health.
I had never been consistent with anything since I stopped playing soccer. I felt like nothing was working but I wasn’t putting everything into it like I did when I played a game that I loved. Sometimes I may not love my body but I love who I am and I don’t want to ruin the rest of my adult life by letting this dark cycle continue.
Using My Fat For Good
I wanted to create this blog to teach others that it is possible to change your life for the better. There is so much information out there on what to do or take to be healthy. There are not enough stories that really show you what it takes to change your life.
I am nowhere near the goal that I have set for myself and I want to make this blog be about the real struggles and emotions that come with this life change. Hopefully to set an example so that people like me know that it may not be easy, but someone has done it and they can follow me on this journey to a happy healthier life. I look forward to going on this journey with you. To be able to share the daily emotions that come along with learning to love your body again.